I have this special friend named Lyn.
She was very sweet and caring me.
She always checked on me and treated me a 'special' person.
Suddenly I realized, I was falling for her. On March 14, she proposed to me and we became a couple.
She remained sweet and loving to me.
Every 14th of the month she would say,
"Ian, I have to tell you something..."
but will not continue it and say it was nothing.
I became curious, was she about to break up with me?
But I continued to trust her. Our graduation is coming -- on March 14, 4 years later.
I knew that after this night, my family and I would be leaving for the states.
We knew this time would come, and I never expected it to hurt so much.
But I have to go and leave her.
We promised to stay in touch and never forget each other.
She gave me a box of chocolates, flowers, pictures of us together and a locket.And so, I left with memories of Lyn in my heart.
We always e- mailed each other and communicated.
I told her how I loved life here, I partied every Friday with my friends, went shopping...
I was living the life I always wished I had.
But I was never able to read Lyn's last letter because of my hectic schedule.
I promised myself to read it when I found the time.
Then suddenly, it stopped (her letters and e- mails).
I was wondering why she isn't writing to me anymore.
But I understand maybe she has work to do. She didn't even greet me on March 14.
After several months still without communication, I found time to read her last letter and it was the most shocking moment in my life.
Ian,
this is my last letter to you. Remember when I was supposed to tell you something important but was never able to do so? I wanted to tell you that my "moment" (it means death) is March 14, exactly 1 year later after you left and 5 years after I proposed to you. That was what the doctor said. I have this sickness; I forgot what it was called.All I know is that I'm going to die soon. I'm not telling you to come back after reading this letter. I just wanted to let you know that I will always love you and that forever you will be in my heart. I love you Ian. Thank you for changing me. Thank you for everything.Goodbye I'm going to miss you.
Lots of love,Lyn.
I wanted to cry and shout her name.March 14 was 3 months ago! She died 3 months ago!And I never knew because I was so busy enjoying my life here when someone I loved so much was suffering from an unidentified sickness.Up to this day I still feel guilty,I could have been right beside Lyn when she was ill,But I was here partying and eating my heart out.I was so guilty.She died. Lyn died.Until her last breath she wanted to be with me.But I wasn't there.I went back to the place and visited her grave.In it was written,
"To Lyn, who loved Ian so much, may she forever rest in peace."
And she died on March 14. March 14, when this day comes,I cry, laugh, think and feel guilty; this day I feel mixed emotions.I hate myself.Why do I have to read his last letter when it was too late?Why do I have to leave anyway?These questions keep going on my mind.But I can do nothing now.Lyn is up there.I guess she wanted me to be happy.I still love Lyn.And I miss her so much....She handed her 12 roses, 11 real and 1 fake and said,
"I'll love you till the last one dies."
THE END.
P/S: Spend 90% of your time with someone you love not metter how far you are, coz who knows, wut will happen. Appreciate what you have now.
She was very sweet and caring me.
She always checked on me and treated me a 'special' person.
Suddenly I realized, I was falling for her. On March 14, she proposed to me and we became a couple.
She remained sweet and loving to me.
Every 14th of the month she would say,
"Ian, I have to tell you something..."
but will not continue it and say it was nothing.
I became curious, was she about to break up with me?
But I continued to trust her. Our graduation is coming -- on March 14, 4 years later.
I knew that after this night, my family and I would be leaving for the states.
We knew this time would come, and I never expected it to hurt so much.
But I have to go and leave her.
We promised to stay in touch and never forget each other.
She gave me a box of chocolates, flowers, pictures of us together and a locket.And so, I left with memories of Lyn in my heart.
We always e- mailed each other and communicated.
I told her how I loved life here, I partied every Friday with my friends, went shopping...
I was living the life I always wished I had.
But I was never able to read Lyn's last letter because of my hectic schedule.
I promised myself to read it when I found the time.
Then suddenly, it stopped (her letters and e- mails).
I was wondering why she isn't writing to me anymore.
But I understand maybe she has work to do. She didn't even greet me on March 14.
After several months still without communication, I found time to read her last letter and it was the most shocking moment in my life.
Ian,
this is my last letter to you. Remember when I was supposed to tell you something important but was never able to do so? I wanted to tell you that my "moment" (it means death) is March 14, exactly 1 year later after you left and 5 years after I proposed to you. That was what the doctor said. I have this sickness; I forgot what it was called.All I know is that I'm going to die soon. I'm not telling you to come back after reading this letter. I just wanted to let you know that I will always love you and that forever you will be in my heart. I love you Ian. Thank you for changing me. Thank you for everything.Goodbye I'm going to miss you.
Lots of love,Lyn.
I wanted to cry and shout her name.March 14 was 3 months ago! She died 3 months ago!And I never knew because I was so busy enjoying my life here when someone I loved so much was suffering from an unidentified sickness.Up to this day I still feel guilty,I could have been right beside Lyn when she was ill,But I was here partying and eating my heart out.I was so guilty.She died. Lyn died.Until her last breath she wanted to be with me.But I wasn't there.I went back to the place and visited her grave.In it was written,
"To Lyn, who loved Ian so much, may she forever rest in peace."
And she died on March 14. March 14, when this day comes,I cry, laugh, think and feel guilty; this day I feel mixed emotions.I hate myself.Why do I have to read his last letter when it was too late?Why do I have to leave anyway?These questions keep going on my mind.But I can do nothing now.Lyn is up there.I guess she wanted me to be happy.I still love Lyn.And I miss her so much....She handed her 12 roses, 11 real and 1 fake and said,
"I'll love you till the last one dies."
THE END.
P/S: Spend 90% of your time with someone you love not metter how far you are, coz who knows, wut will happen. Appreciate what you have now.
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